**MenDiN my HeaRt**

::Disclaimer..my heart is almost done healing::

this is an excerpt from my pages hidden in that secret location

Someone once said once you give him/her ur heart..u cant take it bac..unless its given back...

well..

Why did you give me urs and Snatch it back like i was a thief in the night
Why did u take my heart when u kno u cudnt handle it with care
Why did u get scared, shake n push my heart in front of that speeding SUV
Why didnt u stay at the scene to see jus how much damage ur push did
Why were u scared to see the damage u did
Why were u scared to see the pieces u reduced my heart to
Why cudnt u look at the stitches
Did u think u cud jus kill my pumpin heart like dat
Did u think itll make u feel better
Did u think my heart wont make it
Did u think runnin from the scene wud rid u of guilt or love
Did u think dats how u treat Love that never failed u
Did u think u were in a dream n the car really wont hit me as badly
Did u think the scar wud never catch ur eye..

U see those where the questions that my mind tried to answer as my heart laid on the cold pavement bleeding and clinging to life...
Those long hours under the operatin table witout u by myside made those stitches hurt the more but made my heart stronger
Each piercin stictch reflected each second u left my heart to die...each second u didnt know my hearts status...each second my heart was almost clingin to life support
The recovery room was even colder than the pavement...now the pain was numb..the pain killers were workin but my heart wasnt respondin..it was jus dere as if it shud never had made it thru that crash
it never shud have met u in that alley..it never shud have trusted u or shud it
After the hospital, the therapy began...My heart was a long way from complete healin...it jus never regain the same consciousness..it never wanted to believe again ..
My heart hated therapy cause it meant it had to remember the crash, the past..the thut of not holdin back...but soon therapy became my hearts outlet too see ur insecurities
To see the truth of ur identity...
To seee it still had ur heart..but ur mind was long astray into the wilderness of this so called Life of a Party Addict!
To heal from the injuries sustained from ur wrecklessness n carelessness of u

My Heart is healin greatly even tho when u attempted to give it bac u left it in a mess but my heart was way too strong to jus wither away..it persevered...unlike u...u didnt ask for it bac but u got it..Here is ur heart bac....BUT why wont u take it bac...r u scared to face the reality of where ur heart lies....r u scared to acknowledge u still want me to hold onto ur heart...i thut u wanted it bac...my heart is healed witout u now..no bad feelings...no revenge...jus plain bliss...cause my heart is stronger than that day u threw it in front of that speeding SUV.

When my heart selected you...it wasnt an option...it didnt discriminate you..it didnt judge u..it didnt mislead u...it didnt doubt u..it took u in flaws n all....it enjoyed u n urs...it accepted ur world..it gave u its all...why did u push it in front of that SUV to die....

Thankfully...my heart with the stitches n fading scars still loves u dearly n wishes u nothin but the best in everythin life brings ur way....

AND

is Still and Almost done Healin! My heart...stronger than last time