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OMG cant believe ive bn MIA for so long...bn catchn up to alot of stuvs ive neglected...i.e. my life..lol

well theres alot to catch up on but for now...i feel like ventin or rather takin a load off

seee 2007 was a yr of laughter, serious laughter, crying, planning, understanding, and lastly standing.... soooo yea before the yr ran out i did a lot of searchin n satisfyin my self....i uprooted alot of old plants that were takin up space...some werent as easy to uproot as others...a few found their way bac but def believe they shal come out sooner than later....well this brings me to my reason to findin my way bac to here!!!!

so right..i have this friend...a very good friend if u ask me...but i swear we bump heads so much its ridunkulous but sha i love this friend to death like...in my ragin anger i will still tell u i love this friend...but lately im beginning to see this love as holding me bac..this friend might say im not as good of a friend to them or might say i am but i def hav my faults...none the less....i alwayss feel compelled to make sure this friend is not upset at me evn wen i feel im right...n its startin to b a burden n i shudnt feel that way....seee i try my best to be there but sometimes i gotta look out for me first cause ive learned in this life all u got is ur self in the end... so yea i contacted this friend earlier today cause i havent really spoken to them in a minute...we've been playin a game of phone tag....busy schedules eh! yea but today after speakin wit this friend i realize we r jus not meant to b like before...first it took this friend forever to respond to me...granted the friend was prolly busy n im prolly jus too expectant..yea i kno but i jus had a feelin this friend was either upset at me or holding some grudge towards me n im tired of feelin like i have to always explain myself...abeggie men..i have loads of things of my mind i need to work on n i cant afford to pile up excess...i mean this person means the world to me but its jus not workin...

no. 2... everytime i go thru my life endin situations..lol..thats wat i call them cause when they happen gosh it feels like life is about to crash n burn! yea very extreme but shoot me im jus dat emotional...welll this friend ALWAYS brings up the past..always the NEGATIVE ones n its jus life damn..can i please get past it without u bringin it up...granted alot of time i play along like it dont matter..wat am i spposed to doo....shit i even dread the phone cause 99.99999999 percent of the time i can predict the conversation n it almost always end up in me havn to do somethin to livn my self bac up....arghhhhhhhhh

m so lost....do i let this friend goo or wat....talkin about it is not an issue like i said before we seriously bump heads alot n we never seem to see the same scenario...i guess its the definition of two sides to every story....


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