JIST

my life is jus on a serious rise....like i wud never have thut...but let me start my recaps i have long promised....

soooooo every yr i dread that stupid day..valentines day ..that is...whether or not m single..why...well cause if m single ...the observance of the day makes me feel like im missin somthin wen m not...n if m booed up...i end up imagining things..romantic things that is..well m not much of a romantic per se...like i dream the cute luvy duvy stuv but i wud never in a million yrs actually show it...who knows why.... welll my valentines day was quite a surprise n fun....surprise n fun i wud hav never guessed....sooo in 24 hrs i have major toasters that i jus neglected or well paid no attn to cause i am comfortable with my drama free life...

toaster 1..calls at 12.01 like...normally i never hear the phone....(story for another day..i think i need to check my ears) n talked for like hours...more like 3...he professed his 2 yr quest to tell me how he feels..WOW...i was shocked....n the thing is i dont really like him like dat..as in i jus n hav always saw him as a friend...i strayed away from datin this person...it felt good to kno i was loved but its not the love i need jo...now i feel kinda stuck ....i dunno wat to do...

toaster 2...so after my recent ordeals in the latter part of last yr....i found myself being a lil more free with my self....not thinkin too much about things...jus tryn to live life before my time ran out.. and during this time came this fella...i guess theres a reason behind everythin ....i was warned to stay away from him...he was bad news...this n that...God knows m them most stubborn person in the world...i listened n to a good extent erased him..but some how he always came into play...soooo its funny how much ppl listen or observe u when u think no ones payin attn...seee im the kind of person that when m happy i love my happy songs..n when m not so hppy....Good ole Mary comes into Press n Play...u kno cause shes s sister that has bein thru it all but in the end shes stil holdin her head up high....n when that single.."Just fine" came out...mhen i blasted that song like it was my anthem...not as an illusion but really i was realizn i was jus fine wit how my life was shaping out...i cant always control everythin ..i will have questions, n confusions...but if i live my life freely...ill b jus fine....nnnnnnnnnn this leads to my story when i heard the door bell ring....seeeee most ppl dont kno my new residence cause ive jus kept to me myself n my family..but we all stood at the window lookin out to see who it was cause neither mommy, i, sis or bro was expectin no one...only to find Toaster...WHATTTTTTTTTT DA FCUK.....like i ran so fast n started shakin...i kno...omo mhen it was like 5 in the evenin...i hadnt baffed.....my scarf was nicely tied.....i had one house clothes..as in i was not in a visitor expectin mode...but sha i answered after he waited for like 10 mins..the house was a mess we were all loungn ard the house....only for him to come n say..." KIKI, i knou been thru alot...i hav tried to help u thru it as a guy to tell u my perspective on things..or how u handled it....blah blah...i kno ulove usher n all but i think u wud love this person on this paper more" I hissed ...rude i kno
but i had no clue wat he was talkn about only for me to open the envelope..n seee not one but TWO tickets tooo seeee MARY n JAY....omg i nearly fainted...i screamed so loud momsy nearly had an heart attack as per stranger in her house n her daughter is screamin...sha after i regained composure...i hugged him so tightly n actually cried....mhen i need to seriously man up..cause he was actually listenin to me when i thut i was jus deafn his ears wit my story of an angry black woman..cause i tell u..when it comes to love...i can be really angry ooo....story for another day....

soooo toaster 3: this one was the funiest n surprising....soooooo i revamped my one of many talents n decided i needed to start using all my talents before they vanished ...so i went to hook one of my girls up..shoppn, hair, makwup.....on til this day i only knew of a couple of her friends than n we all usually went out together...so i get to her place as we all bout to roll out n i see another new faced gentleman....in the kitchen cookn n cleanin...m thinkin mayb its an uncle..a cousin or somethin...only for her to say KIKI, meet my best friend...Mike...I was like umm i ndidnt kno u had another bestfriend ...she was like well...he has been hella busy and u never came to my house na..n we never talk past dat side...so welll we went out spent money..got new baffs..we talked n whilst talkin she was like best friends gf was comin to town for vals day n they all wanted to surprise him...n i was like cool ill stop by cause ill prolly be free any how..somethin to do abi...only for me to get home n best friend rings me up ..yada yada..so i ring Labake up and in the midst of the anxiety...I said...Labake...r u ok or r u on crack..so this ur bestfriend wants to make me home wrecker... and.. sideline abi..nooo oooo..besides im chilin...abeggie...if u see the kind response my friend gave me....like i jus knew she wud kno my rxn...she jus laffed at me...can u imagine..Thursday came n i went to her place o like planned wit toaster no 2....as in i was so excited wit toaster no 2 n his thutful ness ..i invited him along only for me to get there n Labake's brother had decorated the house to surprise me..i was sooo shocked when i got there...even worse i felt sooo bad cause toaster no 2 felt out of place even after i explained to him....so labake's bestfriend pulled me aside n told me he wanted to take me out cause he really liked me..( I ONLY MET HIM ONCE) plus i have already told myself i ws not gettin involved wit drama........i dont want awkwardness. we hav mutual friends in common...New yr mhen...sha he took it like a man...he dint burge that much but i could see he was kinda bruised...NAIJA boys sha!...wellll ill continue later mayb tonight...my fingers r tired cause m tryn to fit it all at once...so much happenin mehn....